So much to say…. So little heard… You were my favorite part of this whole year… There were moments… you made me want to live forever…. You gave me smiles… connection… laughter…. Now where… Are you there… No where… Somewhere… I know you care… Somehow… Now feels like a forever that I don’t want to […]
Damn I’m sad bc I miss you. When I contemplated how I’d take my life, you left my side. Surely that was the end of our story my friend. I held on for dear life, shedding the tears left and right, took every bit of strength I own to pick myself up off the floor. […]
I’ve called out your name, grabbing my chest, and I’ve wept aloud “Jess, I’m so sorry.” I’ve shown you the worst and all I want to do is show you the best. Jess, I’m so sorry about the mess I made of things. Bet you don’t even think of me, yet I’ve fallen to my knees, listening […]
I broke down just a moment ago… so much pain. I feel it in my chest…. heaviness….shattering from the weight.
What I’ve learned from it all is you end up on your own…When those you reach to hold onto let you go. When those you show up for leave you alone. Through it all you are strong enough to survive. It’s lonely and hard to endure sometimes yet you make it by alright.
Starting over means letting go. Letting go means accepting what has happened, being at peace with what is, not being held back by what was, moving forward to what can be, leaving the past behind taking in its place what has been learned, the meaning of having gone through it, the benefits of its absence, […]
I refuse to repeat these past patterns of abuse. Figure out what the fuck you are doing before you make your next move. Less is more. Say less. Do more.